BJ The Chicago Kid - Make It Right

Im Sitting Here In Jess' Room Listening To Another Song She Told Me To Listen To. It's Called Make It Right By BJ The Chicago Kid... Im At A Loss Of Words Once Again. It's Making Me Think About Things That I Dont Want To Think About.

The Words Hit Home In So Many Ways... I Wish This Song Could Actually Make It Right, But I Doubt It Could. I Wish He Could Just Kiss Me And Make It Right..

"Lets Make Love One More Time. Tonight We Can Make It Right."

Just Listening To This Song Makes Me Re-Think Everything I Once Knew. I'm Leaving Liberal In A Week Or So And It's Gonna Be A Long Summer Just Not Knowing What To Expect Next Year From This Situation.

My Mom Has Told Me To Use My Best Judgement And To Follow My Heart. But My Heart Is "Not In The Right Places, But Soon Will Be In The Right Hands." I'm Still Denying The Feelings That I Dont Want To Aknowledge. Maybe Me Leaving Is What Is Best For The Both Of Us. I Will Tell Him Good Bye And Shed The Tears Of Defeat And Love.

But Before I Leave I WIll Tell Him, "Let's Make Love One More Time. Baby Tonight We Can Make It Right."

Back To What You Know

I don't know where to beginFighting a war I cant winFighting a memorySomething that used to beNo matter how hard I fightAll of my strength and my mightKeeps defeating meIt just keeps defeating me. [Ne-yo]

Okay I'm here in the computer lab listening to Ne-yo Back To What You Know... Wow What Can I Say Jess Told Me About This Song And I'm Totally In Love With It, But At The Same Time I Dont Wanna Face The Truth Within The Words.

Go back to what you knowGo back to where you know your heart isGirl, just be honest (this is impossible)This is impossibleWe'll never work if you don't want itGirl, you belong with him, so go back to what you know[Ne-yo]

I Think I'm conflicted with how i feel. I Dont know what to think, say, do, or feel. I'm so silent it's as if my mind and soul are dead and my body is lifeless. I dont wanna feel as if i used him in anyw way because thats not the turth.

And if that's really what you wantI will not stand in your wayYou wanna be freeI will let you beI'd rather you happyThen miserable with meBack to what you know. [Ne-yo]

Me and Jess have said Ne-yo Is Like Relationship Jesus... And This is True. Everything Im Going Through He Knows How To Say How I FEEL. Right Now my mind is cluttered and overflowing with emotions and memories.

I hope he doesnt take this the wrong way... but i have to rid my life of him... the words came too fast with the territory. i meant it i did.. but..... I GOTTA GO BACK TO WHAT I KNOW.

Blinded Eyes

Her Soul Is Cracked, But Only Her Mind Is Paralyzed. Never Noticing What Her Surroundings Are Made Of. Her Hands Blind Her Eyes With Selfishness. Excuses Flood Her Mouth Like Saliva. Segregation Overwhelms Her Life && Leaves Her Isolated. Her Errors In Life Go Undisturbed; Only To Build A House Of Lies That Will Soon Be Burnt Down. Her Faults Now Become Her Insecurities. The Zero Hour Of Her Life Is About To Occur. Her Selfishness Turns Into Misery. Her Life Is No Longer A Promotion Of Herself. She Is A Terrorist To Her Own Life. She Will Soon Experience The Wrath Of Her Heart. Tears Fall && Egos Burst. The Storm Is Over. Now A Part Of The World, She Is Back Down On Earth. She Is No Longer Self-Absorbed Nor A Ruthless Human Being. Her Eyes Are No Longer Blinded; She Is Now Seeing.

Motives Of A Man.

I Took What You Said With No Second Thoughts.
You Drained Every Last Emotion Out Of Me; Now I'm Life-Less.
I Told You You Were Different, But You're Still Like The Rest.
You're Nothing To Me. You're Dead To Me I'm Sorry To Confess.
It's Sad To Say That You Knew Me More Than Anyone Else,
But Now Nothing Has Come Of This So-Called "Relationship."
You Said "I Love You Cutie" Followed By A Kiss On The Forehead.
I Wish I Could Say That Tonight Not One Tear Was Shed.
No Longer The Sweet Caring Person, But Now A Deceitful SELFISH "Man"
I Was Made To Believe That I Was The One.
I Took The Blows From Everyone That Put You Down.
My Heart Along With My Emotions Are Bruies And Battered.
I Have Come To Realize It Was Only You, Not Me, That Really Mattered.
I Told Myself Never Again Would I Fall For These Lines And Tricks.
But Hey It's True Guys Dont Think With Their Hearts Just Their D---s.

Skip Our Start

You Have Me Lost In A World That No Longer Understands My Feelings Or My Thoughts. I Try My Hardest To Put Into Words How I Feel And All I Recieve Is Anger And Questioning. I Love You And I Want You To Feel The Same. You Say You Do But Your Actions Shun Me From Your World As If I Were A Felon. I Wish I Never Subjected Myself To You And Let My Wall Crumble With Every Word You Said. I Am Trying To Stay As Positive As I Can Without You But I Long For You More Than The Blood That Flows Through My Veins. Without You I Can Feel This Love Thing Disappear Without My Permission. Never Did I Believe That You Would Have This Hold On My Heart && Soul. I Wish From The Bottom Of My Heart That This Never Went As Far As It Did, But I Cant Help The Way I Feel Nor Will I Try To Deny It Either. Youre The Love Of My Life, But I Need You To Leave Before I Get More Involved. I No Longer Want To Go On Defending A Love That You Want Noting To Do With. Go, Please; I Insist. Help Me Salvage The Lil Bit Of Me That I Have Left. Leave And Keep Your Distance From My Shatter'd Heart. If It Were Up To Be I Would Go Back And Skip Our Start.

Ghost Among The Living

Her Face Is Shadowed By Hate And Darkness. Never Feeling As If She Existed With The Rest Of The World. A Ghost Among The Living. Her Soul Is Broken; Never To Be Replaced Again. She Walks On The Street Face Down. Never Does She See A Welcoming Face. Whispers Linger In The Air & Rumors Fly. She Knows She's Far From Perfect. Her Life Hasn't Felt Complete. She Wakes Up Disconnected From The Universe That Once Accepted Her And Her Thoughts. Her Eyes Are Sheltered By Hands That Previously Gripped Her In Their Grasp. Her Heart Is Masked By A Stone Cold Exterior Which Has Been Shattered Over & Again. It's As If She's Searching In The Night For Someone To Befriend. The Gates Of Heaven Have Opened Up To Her & Welcomed Her In When No One Else Would. At This Moment Something Happened That Never Should. Now She Is Safe & In Total Serenity. She Is No Longer A Ghost Among The Living; It's As If She Lost Everything About Her Identity.

She's Scared To Death

she's scared to death that a night of fun will turn into her worse nightmare. she doesn’t want his life to end. what he is doing is just a senseless trend. the bottle must be surgically removed from his hand.
this worthless habit he has developed, she can’t stand. he has his whole life ahead of him and so much more. the life he is living is too hard core. he must slow down and watch the steps he makes.
without the bottle, his hands nervously shakes. he has built up a tolerance that is hard to break down. his sorrows he tries to drown. she is scared to death that her night of fun will into her worse nightmare.
how does she arise this subject to him. she doesn’t want to seem too pushy and scare him away. she doesn’t just want to turn and walk away. there would be too many things left to say.
he is slowly letting his body deteriorate.
she watches as if she is a witness to a suicide. nothing left for her to do.
she begs on her knees for him to stop. tears down her face her hands around his ankles.
she pleads with him to just give it up but it's too late.
His destiny has been set and so has his fate. he looks at her with tear-filled eyes. it was as if he was standing in a crowed room and was screaming at the stop of his lungs.
she's scared to death that a night of fun will turn into her worse nightmare.
her nightmare is now reality. standing over a body bag trying to identify his face.
shrieks sound throughout the room as she knows who this is.
her heart breaks and reality hits her strong when she grabs a seat.
her life is over just and much as his when they drape over that white sheet.