Motives Of A Man.

I Took What You Said With No Second Thoughts.
You Drained Every Last Emotion Out Of Me; Now I'm Life-Less.
I Told You You Were Different, But You're Still Like The Rest.
You're Nothing To Me. You're Dead To Me I'm Sorry To Confess.
It's Sad To Say That You Knew Me More Than Anyone Else,
But Now Nothing Has Come Of This So-Called "Relationship."
You Said "I Love You Cutie" Followed By A Kiss On The Forehead.
I Wish I Could Say That Tonight Not One Tear Was Shed.
No Longer The Sweet Caring Person, But Now A Deceitful SELFISH "Man"
I Was Made To Believe That I Was The One.
I Took The Blows From Everyone That Put You Down.
My Heart Along With My Emotions Are Bruies And Battered.
I Have Come To Realize It Was Only You, Not Me, That Really Mattered.
I Told Myself Never Again Would I Fall For These Lines And Tricks.
But Hey It's True Guys Dont Think With Their Hearts Just Their D---s.

Skip Our Start

You Have Me Lost In A World That No Longer Understands My Feelings Or My Thoughts. I Try My Hardest To Put Into Words How I Feel And All I Recieve Is Anger And Questioning. I Love You And I Want You To Feel The Same. You Say You Do But Your Actions Shun Me From Your World As If I Were A Felon. I Wish I Never Subjected Myself To You And Let My Wall Crumble With Every Word You Said. I Am Trying To Stay As Positive As I Can Without You But I Long For You More Than The Blood That Flows Through My Veins. Without You I Can Feel This Love Thing Disappear Without My Permission. Never Did I Believe That You Would Have This Hold On My Heart && Soul. I Wish From The Bottom Of My Heart That This Never Went As Far As It Did, But I Cant Help The Way I Feel Nor Will I Try To Deny It Either. Youre The Love Of My Life, But I Need You To Leave Before I Get More Involved. I No Longer Want To Go On Defending A Love That You Want Noting To Do With. Go, Please; I Insist. Help Me Salvage The Lil Bit Of Me That I Have Left. Leave And Keep Your Distance From My Shatter'd Heart. If It Were Up To Be I Would Go Back And Skip Our Start.

Ghost Among The Living

Her Face Is Shadowed By Hate And Darkness. Never Feeling As If She Existed With The Rest Of The World. A Ghost Among The Living. Her Soul Is Broken; Never To Be Replaced Again. She Walks On The Street Face Down. Never Does She See A Welcoming Face. Whispers Linger In The Air & Rumors Fly. She Knows She's Far From Perfect. Her Life Hasn't Felt Complete. She Wakes Up Disconnected From The Universe That Once Accepted Her And Her Thoughts. Her Eyes Are Sheltered By Hands That Previously Gripped Her In Their Grasp. Her Heart Is Masked By A Stone Cold Exterior Which Has Been Shattered Over & Again. It's As If She's Searching In The Night For Someone To Befriend. The Gates Of Heaven Have Opened Up To Her & Welcomed Her In When No One Else Would. At This Moment Something Happened That Never Should. Now She Is Safe & In Total Serenity. She Is No Longer A Ghost Among The Living; It's As If She Lost Everything About Her Identity.

She's Scared To Death

she's scared to death that a night of fun will turn into her worse nightmare. she doesn’t want his life to end. what he is doing is just a senseless trend. the bottle must be surgically removed from his hand.
this worthless habit he has developed, she can’t stand. he has his whole life ahead of him and so much more. the life he is living is too hard core. he must slow down and watch the steps he makes.
without the bottle, his hands nervously shakes. he has built up a tolerance that is hard to break down. his sorrows he tries to drown. she is scared to death that her night of fun will into her worse nightmare.
how does she arise this subject to him. she doesn’t want to seem too pushy and scare him away. she doesn’t just want to turn and walk away. there would be too many things left to say.
he is slowly letting his body deteriorate.
she watches as if she is a witness to a suicide. nothing left for her to do.
she begs on her knees for him to stop. tears down her face her hands around his ankles.
she pleads with him to just give it up but it's too late.
His destiny has been set and so has his fate. he looks at her with tear-filled eyes. it was as if he was standing in a crowed room and was screaming at the stop of his lungs.
she's scared to death that a night of fun will turn into her worse nightmare.
her nightmare is now reality. standing over a body bag trying to identify his face.
shrieks sound throughout the room as she knows who this is.
her heart breaks and reality hits her strong when she grabs a seat.
her life is over just and much as his when they drape over that white sheet.

Robert Sigala:Strongest Man I Know

We dont know how fast life can end. we are at times selfish and oblivious to death and those who surround our lives. we must slow down and thank the lord, he who which gave us this breathe. we need no longer be selfish. reach out a hand and your heart to those you care for. We must no longer focus on the material, but that of mortal. Life is never a promise but, yet, a privilege. lets stop and hug those who we care for. lets stop and take the time to say the 3 small word which influence our lives so greatly. be thankful and HUMBLED by your life. when you think your life is so off track... think to yourself. things could always be worse. My heart goes out to Robert Sigala and his family. His family has been through so much in this last month. my heart breaks to think of this. my prayers and condolences are with them. slow down your busy life and smell the flowers, because today is not always promised and tomorrow is not always given.
Love is Love,
Sahara I Love You Robert!

Dazed In Confusion

Lost with no train of thought. I run around looking for a way out of this dream. There is no where for me to go. I stop and sit down to catch by breathe. My mind jumps from one subject leaving me on a path of dirt. I collect myself and wipe my face clean of guilt and love. Im dazed in confusion with my heart breaking and fluttering at the same time. I know i love him and i know my feeling for you are true and immortal. Am i just being factitious or needy? I look for ways to make this right nothing comes to mind. I love you along with him. Never thought i would be stuck between two guys that are both perfect for me. I'm dazed in confusion. I see you as my only way out. Love fills my eyes with tears, but the truth reveals that being in love with you in one of my greatest fears.

Unfaithful

I know i should not think these things nor act upon them. But he has my heart in his grip. I try to rid myself of this selfish disease. i cant seem to focus on anything but my next fix. Infatuation and lust consume my body. Lies run through my veins as if they are blood in which that keeps me alive. My deceitful actions now become who i am. Never feeling any sense of remorse just satisfaction. i know my heart isnt in the right places, but soon will be in the right hands. I am wrong without a doubt but i dont mind. i lurk around as if i am a burglar of hearts. As it has been said before "all is fair in love and war."